full speed ahead.

“there are people we meet in life who miss being important to us by inches, days, or heartbeats. Another place or time or different emotional frame of mind and we would willingly fall into their arms; gladly take up their challenge or invitation. but as it is, we encounter them when we are discontent or content and they are not. whatever they are, we are not and vice versa. two trains going in different directions that pass for a few powerful moments at full speed, blasting noise and wind but then they are gone. whatever serious chemistry might have been possible, isn’t.”

- jonathon carroll

a {restless} heart.

i’m fervently praying for everything unresolved in mine.

sarahjobell

splendor {past the limitations.}

i’m starting to get this sinking feeling that i’m wasting my life.

i’m constantly in this state of discontent.

as though i’m accomplishing nothing.

amongst the mess of my pity party,

i have forgotten how fortunate i am.

yet, i still struggle.

therefore today, i started “the happiness project.”

i know the book may not be from a christian point of view,

but that doesn’t make it wrong.

although, in the end i may come to find that the author + i will have some different opinions on what will truly make one happy.

but that’s what the book is all about.

in the end, you create your own happiness project.

everyone’s will vary.

however, all may learn to be grateful for an ordinary day.

which is exactly what i’m going to attempt to do.

sarahjobell

transition + more...

i am a firm believer in keeping things simple. this time of transition in my life {or coming upon it} has left me anxiety-ridden.

i’ve wrapped the twine so tightly around my finger, my pulse is cutting off. & turning it blue.

but i still have hope. i’ve heard it said that if God cares so much to create a beautiful sunset or breathtaking mountains all for US to enjoy, then can you even fathom the love He has for us? He loves THAT much + more.

my hope + heart overflows at the sight of a single vibrant red leaf, of the warm scent of maple pumpkin candles permeating my apartment, of a kitten eager for my attention + purring in my presence. & He cares about that too.

& it clears the air of the anxiety. He knows the plan He has for me. & although i’m in the hallway with no door to open yet, He is present. how’s about that for peace of mind?

hope will lead us on,

sarahjobell

to the glory {of the One who made you.}

this morning i was thinking about how frustrated + disappointed i’ve been over decisions made by people i care about.

& how rough my job feels when I’m dragging myself out of bed at 5 am, wondering if it will be a good or bad day at work.

& struggling to understand why a kind-hearted, Christian man just got diagnosed with terminal cancer.

so i listened to some new, uplifting steven curtis chapman music, then drove to quiktrip.

there, a man in front of me in line bought my drink, two packages of gum, & gummie worms.  i told him, “thank you so much, but you didn’t have to do that.” he said, “that’s the gorgeous thing. that i didn’t HAVE to do it.” even if i hadn’t been the one receiving this gift, i think i still would have been moved just by witnessing this + hearing these words.

i realized {while on the verge of tears} that God is in the small stuff. & i think He knew i needed to see Him work in my life today.

& although that man may never know how thankful i am for his generosity, i am sure glad i serve a God that makes Himself so apparent in the world around me.

it is hands down, the most incredible thing.

this is my evidence,

sarahjobell