a {restless} heart.

i’m fervently praying for everything unresolved in mine.

sarahjobell

your story's not over.

i pray for that girl i once knew.

that good girl.

the girl with an unchangeable heart.

that didn’t have to rely on a boy.

with a faith you couldn’t break,

brimming with integrity,

secure in herself.

you’re still that girl.

nobody.knows.

bags are by the door,

hearts are on the floor

there’s a bottle of tears on the dresser drawer…

nobody knows the trouble we’ve seen

nobody knows the price of this dream

& nobody knows what it took to believe.

{i just want to be free, like a runaway.}

falling.down.

take these broken streets

take these broken dreams

hold my hand like we’re walking free.

top of our lungs hallelujah

where pain + love bleed into one.

to keep the world spinning.

“now some point the finger + let ignorance linger

if they’d look in the mirror they’d find,

that ever since the beginning to keep the world spinning

it takes all kinds of kinds.”

My kind is::

watching disney channel movies. never completely devoted to a workout routine. still consuming gushers fruit snacks + applesauce out of the pouch.  cooing at kittens.  willing to go cross-country for a concert. lover of pretty pastel dresses.

& you know, i’m ok with that,

sarahjobell

confession session {period piece.}

i am convinced i was born in the wrong era.

{although, advanced medicine + cleanliness is a nice modern day luxury.}

but everything about period piece books + movies is just so lovely::

lacy ballgowns. eloquent speech. decadent food. handwritten letters. powder rooms + parlors. chivalry + courtship. cobblestone streets + vine-covered cottages.

you can check out more here on my “period piece” pinterest board.

battles + castles.

only a king would do anything to protect the kingdom.
{He left the comfort of His throne//to fight for victory.}

there You are.

i get so sick + tired.

of the critical.cynical.

harsh words. passive thought.

when it comes to You.

even Christians go through rough patches where God feels so distant.

or isn’t helping. providing. caring.

we have our scars + stories too.

but faith tells us that we know better…

God allows trials + hardships for good reason.

& i know better + enough. i don’t have to have proof or science to stay grounded.  & no, i am not living in a fantasy or lala land when i tell you faith IS enough. & yes that means i don’t have all the answers.

He will always be enough. my cup will overflow.

but still, it’s absolutely devastating to witness others divide themselves from Him.

push + tear Him away like tattered, dirty clothing.

i so desperately want to gather up their broken pieces + shards of glass

{not even a second thought whether it’s cutting my own hands},

& tell them “it’s never too late. His love runs so deep that He bled for you.”

He’s there + loving us like crazy,

sarahjobell

let the games begin.

if you haven't checked my pinterest yet, {you can here.}
let me fill you in on today's festivities::

can't wait to see the hunger games tonight!
sarahjobell

the {blooming} friday five.

In between spring break {+ spring actually being here}… there has been wonderful changes happening! & not just the blooms on the trees…

1.     I finally finished a book on spring break in florida. It’s a miracle. & I realized how much I’ve missed getting lost in a good story.

2.     I gave in + joined the hunger games frenzy. I’m very close to being done with the first book, love the soundtrack, + am seeing the movie tomorrow!

3.     I chopped my hair off. I’m not joking, it’s above chin level. & a refreshing change from the tangled, damaged mess it was before.

4.     Have you discovered shellac nails?! If not, scoot your boot down to the nail salon + get it done. It stays on for 2-3 weeks without chipping. At all.

5.     I feel I’m finally getting to a good place where I am at peace. Forgiveness has freed me from chains + made me looking at others who have wronged me much easier. I’m less angry since I’ve been praying for my enemies + asking God to bless them.

happy weekending,

sarahjobell

a treasure {to Me.}

but my daughter you are worth it all,

even my Son’s own life I gave for you.

I choose you my princess and in you I delight,

for you make my heart sing with praises.

I look upon you and I see your heart

and I weep for I see your beauty.

I made you in my image and you are a treasure to Me.

finer than the rarest gold or the largest diamonds.

you move my heart in crazy ways.

& run {with reckless abandon}

“you got a fast car

but is it fast enough so we can fly away?”

i have loved this song since middle school.

it really is terribly sad.

but my gosh, it’s beautiful.

just how hard life is…

& there is still so much adventure + beauty in it.

i want to see more of those two things in my own life.

& i feel that vacation brings that sort of reckless abandon back in my life.

just like i crave.

sarahjobell

conviction + grace

oh you got a fire + it’s burning in the rain

thought that it went out, but it’s burning just the same

& you don’t look back, not for anything

‘cause if you love someone, you love them all the same.

you know what i don’t get? love that supposedly we, as humans, have for one another {or lack thereof.} it’s selfish, judgmental, + critical. i read an article the other day about this victoria’s secret model that quit because of her beliefs. the reactions + comments some people wrote were harsh + cruel. i guess it’s ok for us to gossip about a young christian woman {who obviously realized an error she made} + put her down simply because she is in the spotlight? or because she’s pretty + thin?

God forbid YOU make a mistake, feel convicted about it, & have it shoved back in your face by others. that’s not love. i find it so refreshing that she recognized the veil being pulled over her eyes. & that is why there's forgiveness + a second chance. GRACE. we may not deserve it, but that’s why His hands took the nails.

what if i share my brokenness?

what if you share how you feel?

& what if we weren’t afraid of this crazy mess?

what if we were real?

sarahjobell

ease {the ache}

some things you can’t disguise.

{so give your heart a break.}