to keep the world spinning.

“now some point the finger + let ignorance linger

if they’d look in the mirror they’d find,

that ever since the beginning to keep the world spinning

it takes all kinds of kinds.”

My kind is::

watching disney channel movies. never completely devoted to a workout routine. still consuming gushers fruit snacks + applesauce out of the pouch.  cooing at kittens.  willing to go cross-country for a concert. lover of pretty pastel dresses.

& you know, i’m ok with that,

sarahjobell

if i don't speak {then who's gonna tell you?}

yikes! it scares me when my heart feels vengeful. & how easily it comes.

like perhaps me telling someone how awful they are makes me the “better” person?

i like to call it “crashing the party.”

we try to tear someone’s party favors down {their ego} when we feel that they have no remorse for hurting others. 

i’ve only done that a few select moments in my life.

but it’s history i don’t want to repeat.

it only seems comfortable to remain angry at a person who wronged you.

& practice verbally defending yourself in the mirror,

hoping to have a confrontation one day so you can tell them how you REALLY feel//felt.

but it doesn’t make things better.

& it won’t make room for healing.

forgiveness is necessary. grudges only hinder.

sarahjobell

confession session {period piece.}

i am convinced i was born in the wrong era.

{although, advanced medicine + cleanliness is a nice modern day luxury.}

but everything about period piece books + movies is just so lovely::

lacy ballgowns. eloquent speech. decadent food. handwritten letters. powder rooms + parlors. chivalry + courtship. cobblestone streets + vine-covered cottages.

you can check out more here on my “period piece” pinterest board.

our souvenirs.

it can be anything.

maybe something simple::

a smell. an object. a song. a keepsake.

or it maybe complex::an old hang out spot. a note written or received. a phone call you picked up. cutting remarks exchanged. or maybe words to strengthen. a bridge burned. lessons learned.

whether it be a flashback that’s hard to choke back or a moment you wish you could recapture, our memories follow us… & sometimes they haunt us. they can tear us apart or help to put the pieces back together.

but no matter if the recollection was good or bad, it doesn’t have to dictate our lives. you don’t have to stay stuck in the same small town.  just because you were the nerdy kid or most popular person in high school doesn’t mean you’ll have that identity forever. & you shouldn’t wait around for your ex girlfriend//boyfriend to change their mind.

so let go of what you cannot change + strive to break the chains. forgive + forget. laugh at your mistakes. smile fondly at what used be + then move on…

sarahjobell

battles + castles.

only a king would do anything to protect the kingdom.
{He left the comfort of His throne//to fight for victory.}

there You are.

i get so sick + tired.

of the critical.cynical.

harsh words. passive thought.

when it comes to You.

even Christians go through rough patches where God feels so distant.

or isn’t helping. providing. caring.

we have our scars + stories too.

but faith tells us that we know better…

God allows trials + hardships for good reason.

& i know better + enough. i don’t have to have proof or science to stay grounded.  & no, i am not living in a fantasy or lala land when i tell you faith IS enough. & yes that means i don’t have all the answers.

He will always be enough. my cup will overflow.

but still, it’s absolutely devastating to witness others divide themselves from Him.

push + tear Him away like tattered, dirty clothing.

i so desperately want to gather up their broken pieces + shards of glass

{not even a second thought whether it’s cutting my own hands},

& tell them “it’s never too late. His love runs so deep that He bled for you.”

He’s there + loving us like crazy,

sarahjobell

the only.

everything of this world is a temporary happiness.

you can’t take your house.clothes.college degree.fancy lifestyle. with you.

it will leave you feeling empty-handed.

unfulfilled.

the only One who can truly satisfy the human heart is the One who made it.

{true joy is found in Him.}

{a list of} thinkings.

relive the magic.

dear little girl,

you’re in your twenties. or close to it. Or maybe long past it. but that doesn’t mean you HAVE to be a grown up. nothing is wrong with watching disney movies + listening to boy bands. & whose to judge you for blowing bubbles & continually chowing down on dunkaroos//lunchables//poptarts? age should never hold you back from the puddle that is just begging you to jump in it, from the tree that would have a great view from the top if you climbed it. & being 30 or 40 doesn’t mean you can no longer ride the carousel or wear a sparkly dress.

so believe in fairytales.

make a wish.

dream impossible things.

because innocence + purity are so very beautiful.

& that’s what makes you absolutely lovely.

sarahjobell

a weight {lifted.}

“our hearts are heavy burdens we shouldn’t have to bear alone.”

you don’t have to let yourself drown.

you don’t need to wander aimlessly.

you don’t need to carry the weight all on your own.

{it’ll get better in time, precious girl.}