loving well {with a fragile heart}

this morning i prayed for more peace about past hurts.
& it was hard...
knowing that i've held on to my pain + have plainly stared at my scars over the past 2 years.

when you try repeatedly to have closure {or try to fix what you broke}with someone,
it's pretty easy to assume the worst when a month, 2 months, + now almost 5 months have gone by.
& we still haven't spoken.

& i don't want to assume. buti'm still bothered.

i think it's time to decide whether i have the strength to let it go completely...
or do i have the guts to speak to my friend again.

somedays i wish i wasn't so fragile,

sarahbell

cozied {up}

sometimes i think it would be nice to live in a different zipcode.

kansas always sounds appealing because of its familiarity.

colorado is my even bigger dream that seems a little out of reach right now, but is still possible in the future.

but right now, home is here in oklahoma.

& i’m just happy to be cozied up in my bed {kinda worn out from this last week + thinking about the one ahead.}

snuggling with three adorable cats.

just relaxing.

even if it is just one day off work.

sarahbell

orange.county.

guess what my husband is hooked to?
{ah, memory lane...}

best.
show.
ever.

{my} crafty corner.

i love random, creative days.

{while listening to this::}

open.your.heart.

sometimes i wonder…

what if we were real?

{because you + i were made for so.much.more.}

trials + blessings

this year, someone asked me if ate my black-eyed peas on new years day for good luck.
nope. sure didn't.
{i had never even heard of that anyways...}

& you know what? i don't need to.
i know this year will come with it's trials + blessings just like any other.
but guess what?

i will not be shaken. & i will not be moved.
because He has it all under control.

reminds me of this::

i know that there's a meaning to it all

a little resurrection every time i fall

you got your babies, i got my hearses

every blessing comes with a set of curses

i got my vices, i got my vice verses.

{don't be afraid of failure in this new year... but remember to stand back up too.}