summer {vibes}.

well friends, as wonderful as it’s been, it’s time to wrap up my summer festivities.

& let me tell you, it’s flown by!

…i’ve been running for almost 2 months now… & am up to 4.7 miles!

…been on roadtrips to kansas for a wedding + to missouri for a float trip/lake weekend.

…ran in the color run + another 5k for the american baseball league.

… & now i’m about to go bananas in belize for 2 weeks!!! {note:: this vaca is falling on my one year anniversary + it’s the same place we honeymooned… & it wasn’t even planned that way}

so although i apologize for being so absent with my blogging, i must say it’s been worth the break! i feel like i’ve truly soaked up my summer. with that said, i will officially return at the end of august//beginning of september.

now it just needs to cool off a tad.

soakin’ up the rest of the rays,

 sarahjo

your story's not over.

i pray for that girl i once knew.

that good girl.

the girl with an unchangeable heart.

that didn’t have to rely on a boy.

with a faith you couldn’t break,

brimming with integrity,

secure in herself.

you’re still that girl.

roughin' it.

drove. pitched a tent. ran in the crisp morning. black coffee + baked beans for breakfast. canoed all day. burnt shoulders. camped out. drove some more. lake time. water skiing. tubing with my momma. cliff jumping. water up my nose. twice. more burnt skin.

& totally worth the crazy looking sun rash i had last night.

oh how i love summer weekend-ing,

sarahjobell

nobody.knows.

bags are by the door,

hearts are on the floor

there’s a bottle of tears on the dresser drawer…

nobody knows the trouble we’ve seen

nobody knows the price of this dream

& nobody knows what it took to believe.

{i just want to be free, like a runaway.}

falling.down.

take these broken streets

take these broken dreams

hold my hand like we’re walking free.

top of our lungs hallelujah

where pain + love bleed into one.

left {behind}

let’s face it::

some moments + memories are better left stashed away.

blown away.

i often find myself wishing that a storm would come ripping through...

shattering the windows,

tearing the doors off their hinges,

washing out the dust + disheartened overcast that has hung heavy in the air.

i want it all to just blow over + away.

& take my discouragement with it.

sarahjobell

the long haul home.

“thank God for the county lines that welcome you back in

when you were dying to get out…

you got somewhere to go + get found

thank God for hometowns.

i always find another piece of me

walking down these old familiar streets.”

{it’ll be worth the drive to get back to kansas a few times this summer.}

to keep the world spinning.

“now some point the finger + let ignorance linger

if they’d look in the mirror they’d find,

that ever since the beginning to keep the world spinning

it takes all kinds of kinds.”

My kind is::

watching disney channel movies. never completely devoted to a workout routine. still consuming gushers fruit snacks + applesauce out of the pouch.  cooing at kittens.  willing to go cross-country for a concert. lover of pretty pastel dresses.

& you know, i’m ok with that,

sarahjobell

if i don't speak {then who's gonna tell you?}

yikes! it scares me when my heart feels vengeful. & how easily it comes.

like perhaps me telling someone how awful they are makes me the “better” person?

i like to call it “crashing the party.”

we try to tear someone’s party favors down {their ego} when we feel that they have no remorse for hurting others. 

i’ve only done that a few select moments in my life.

but it’s history i don’t want to repeat.

it only seems comfortable to remain angry at a person who wronged you.

& practice verbally defending yourself in the mirror,

hoping to have a confrontation one day so you can tell them how you REALLY feel//felt.

but it doesn’t make things better.

& it won’t make room for healing.

forgiveness is necessary. grudges only hinder.

sarahjobell