splendor {past the limitations.}

i’m starting to get this sinking feeling that i’m wasting my life.

i’m constantly in this state of discontent.

as though i’m accomplishing nothing.

amongst the mess of my pity party,

i have forgotten how fortunate i am.

yet, i still struggle.

therefore today, i started “the happiness project.”

i know the book may not be from a christian point of view,

but that doesn’t make it wrong.

although, in the end i may come to find that the author + i will have some different opinions on what will truly make one happy.

but that’s what the book is all about.

in the end, you create your own happiness project.

everyone’s will vary.

however, all may learn to be grateful for an ordinary day.

which is exactly what i’m going to attempt to do.

sarahjobell

to the glory {of the One who made you.}

this morning i was thinking about how frustrated + disappointed i’ve been over decisions made by people i care about.

& how rough my job feels when I’m dragging myself out of bed at 5 am, wondering if it will be a good or bad day at work.

& struggling to understand why a kind-hearted, Christian man just got diagnosed with terminal cancer.

so i listened to some new, uplifting steven curtis chapman music, then drove to quiktrip.

there, a man in front of me in line bought my drink, two packages of gum, & gummie worms.  i told him, “thank you so much, but you didn’t have to do that.” he said, “that’s the gorgeous thing. that i didn’t HAVE to do it.” even if i hadn’t been the one receiving this gift, i think i still would have been moved just by witnessing this + hearing these words.

i realized {while on the verge of tears} that God is in the small stuff. & i think He knew i needed to see Him work in my life today.

& although that man may never know how thankful i am for his generosity, i am sure glad i serve a God that makes Himself so apparent in the world around me.

it is hands down, the most incredible thing.

this is my evidence,

sarahjobell

summer {vibes}.

well friends, as wonderful as it’s been, it’s time to wrap up my summer festivities.

& let me tell you, it’s flown by!

…i’ve been running for almost 2 months now… & am up to 4.7 miles!

…been on roadtrips to kansas for a wedding + to missouri for a float trip/lake weekend.

…ran in the color run + another 5k for the american baseball league.

… & now i’m about to go bananas in belize for 2 weeks!!! {note:: this vaca is falling on my one year anniversary + it’s the same place we honeymooned… & it wasn’t even planned that way}

so although i apologize for being so absent with my blogging, i must say it’s been worth the break! i feel like i’ve truly soaked up my summer. with that said, i will officially return at the end of august//beginning of september.

now it just needs to cool off a tad.

soakin’ up the rest of the rays,

 sarahjo

roughin' it.

drove. pitched a tent. ran in the crisp morning. black coffee + baked beans for breakfast. canoed all day. burnt shoulders. camped out. drove some more. lake time. water skiing. tubing with my momma. cliff jumping. water up my nose. twice. more burnt skin.

& totally worth the crazy looking sun rash i had last night.

oh how i love summer weekend-ing,

sarahjobell

nobody.knows.

bags are by the door,

hearts are on the floor

there’s a bottle of tears on the dresser drawer…

nobody knows the trouble we’ve seen

nobody knows the price of this dream

& nobody knows what it took to believe.

{i just want to be free, like a runaway.}

falling.down.

take these broken streets

take these broken dreams

hold my hand like we’re walking free.

top of our lungs hallelujah

where pain + love bleed into one.

the long haul home.

“thank God for the county lines that welcome you back in

when you were dying to get out…

you got somewhere to go + get found

thank God for hometowns.

i always find another piece of me

walking down these old familiar streets.”

{it’ll be worth the drive to get back to kansas a few times this summer.}

{a list of} thinkings.

relive the magic.

dear little girl,

you’re in your twenties. or close to it. Or maybe long past it. but that doesn’t mean you HAVE to be a grown up. nothing is wrong with watching disney movies + listening to boy bands. & whose to judge you for blowing bubbles & continually chowing down on dunkaroos//lunchables//poptarts? age should never hold you back from the puddle that is just begging you to jump in it, from the tree that would have a great view from the top if you climbed it. & being 30 or 40 doesn’t mean you can no longer ride the carousel or wear a sparkly dress.

so believe in fairytales.

make a wish.

dream impossible things.

because innocence + purity are so very beautiful.

& that’s what makes you absolutely lovely.

sarahjobell