{not} ready

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

The truth spoke to me through a song blasting in my car last night. And I sang. Rather loudly, I might add. The Dixie Chicks may have wrote this song for another purpose {only a story I vaguely remember}, but I found such a common ground with them as the lyrics poured out of the speakers.

Here's the best part. in my opinion::

I know you said

Can't you just get over it??
It turned my whole world around
And I kinda like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad, sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger

And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter sayin' that I better
Shut up and sing or my life will be over

In my case, instead I was told that I need to be more careful and take better care of my friends and the people I care about. Wow, that's a lot {or I guess "lack"} of caring for a girl who took the time to ask a "friend" for advice. Forgive me. I guess I must not care.

Bottom line:: Yes, I'm still mad. And no, there's nothing wrong with that. I'm pretty verbal and I lay the cards out on the table. I'm not gonna sugarcoat my feelings. It will get better. I hope.

Please bear with me,

sarahjo

{love} save the empty

I am not singling out nursing as a profession that is more difficult than others, but just a different level of difficulty I guess. But this little reminder helps I think::

Somewhere right now a nurse is helping a woman become a mother, holding the hand of a dying man, inserting an IV in a child, listening to an Alzheimer's patient tell a story and is missing their family while caring for yours. In the minute it took you to read this, nurses all over the world are saving lives. Re-post if you are a nurse, love a nurse, or appreciate a nurse.

Thanks Stormy for the reminder! love ya girl.

sarahjo

{learning} the hard way

You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life

Savannah Outen, a very talented young lady indeed! Got her start on Youtube, can you believe it? She's gonna do really well for herself I'm sure. :)

Talk to you soon,

sarahjo

lonely {little girl}

When I look at you. I see the truth.

What seemed so pretty really can be ugly on the inside.

Today I start fresh.

It makes me wonder though:: how many people, friends, other girls have I hurt and I didn't even know it? Lord, I was SO wrong.

sarahjo

happy {day}

I am needing to learn all over again the simple joys in life. The little things that once made me happy, yet for some time I chose to ignore them because I was being competitive. Which, to be honest? Isn't always the best idea. It's not healthy to constantly be in a battle like that.

Sometimes I find that I am sad and hurt for hours. Only to turn around and be angry for the rest of the day. And I would love to get revenge. But that's not my place. It's natural I'm sure.

Forgiveness will come. But it will take time. In the mean time, I will fight to find my true joy in the only thing possible:: Christ.

And the little, simple things. All over again::

::cute kittens that love me and wait for me at the door when I

come home. I love that they each have different personalities too::

:: my prayer box:: we need to get reacquainted::

{yes, I got the idea from Redeeming Love}

::new sweatpants:: there's always more to talk about with this issue. So, there is more to come! promise!

And lastly::

Family that cares about everything and people I can share my secrets to without being judged.

Girls everywhere that can relate to what I've been through and say, "It's their loss, they're not worth your time and friendship." Thank you. It means so much more than you know.

A boyfriend that listens to even my tiniest of problems and really cares about what I'm going through.

Love you guys!

sarahjo