thankful {for every break in my heart}

can i just say it is such a comfort knowing i got the best catch ever?

seriously.

my husband is my perfect fit.

& i'm thankful for every bridge burned + broken heart it took to get here.

::for every guy that said, "i just want to be friends" or "we can still be friends."

::or told me i didn't open up enough to them.

:: or just plain wanted me to be something i wasn't.

& you know what? i didn't. give. in. during the aftermath, i didn't turn around + look in the rearview mirror & try to give it another shot. i didn't even attempt to keep their friendship {i think that is a dangerous game to play with someone anyways.} & even though i may regret some words i said, every action i took was the right one. i fought for my own strength + finally got enough guts to refuse to date anyone for 2 years.

sometimes, it makes me sad when girls + even grown women settle for less than they deserve. they throw away any personal preference or identifier they have to be what their boyfriend wants. my gosh! i wish they knew the confidence they can have in knowing the freedom singleness has! or that they have the power to tell a guy, "no." & let me tell you, when you discover intuition... it's pretty life-changing.

so today i'm thankful for the boy that i share a mailbox with.

the same boy that cuddles with my cats as much as i do,

that gets up at 5 am just to drive me to work,

that sits through endless afternoons of chick flicks,

& still lets me keep pink blankets + heart-shaped pillows on the couch.

i love you forever + always britton,

sarahbell