{never} understand

"When someone really wants to leave, you can’t do anything to force them to stay. Same goes for someone who wants to stay, no matter what you do, they’ll stick with their gut feeling until they realize they’re wasting their time."

I do see that this is God's plan, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I keep praying that it will get better and that I can't feel sorry for myself. Because honestly, there's nothing I can do about it. You can't make someone like you. Especially if they never did.

I felt like I wasted my time on someone who never really wanted to spend the time. So why do I want everything to go back to the way it was? Why would I want to mend a bridge that someone else burnt? I guess that's just that feeling of, "Can't we all just get along?". I don't know if that will ever happen...

sarahjo

“She was a stranger now, but she’d been a friend once…"

- The Last Song

{sometimes i} forget

Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I'm never going to heal

I see a light, a little grace, a little faith unfurled...

hello world.

{sticks & stones}

words cant undo or fix whats broken.

i guess its pretty easy sweeping problems under the rug.

to cover up.

to try and feel better with something new.

but eventually… it accumulates. it piles up.

actions will always speak LOUDER.

and you've watched me burn.

with a smile on your face.

one {true} thing...

... love is the only safe haven.

The running theme of his novel... and another wonderful {almost forgotten}, pleasant surprise for this fall:: Nicholas Sparks' new book! If you all are as big of fans as I am, then you are screeching like a little girl! Eek!

September 14th release date {perfect timing for my birthday month!} and it already has movie rights sold. Yay!

You can read the description of the book ::here::

sarahjo

{little} surprises!

i guess i'm just a little excited. maybe.

most definitely.

friendship {by definition}

To be loyal & loving in relationships, we must imitate God's faithfulness in our relationships with others.

{long} for you

It gets tough but we've picked up a lot of things along the way
You know that when I get mad I don't mean a word that I say
Sometimes I need more than whats left at the end of the day

I will tell you straight if it's too hard to handle

All I've got to say is won't you kiss me when you come home?

blocked {out}

it's taking a lot of willpower to not turn around and look back...

but dropping off the face of the planet is the smartest thing i've done so far.

{cut} to the core

I now realize that Lauren Conrad pretty much has the best reactions and advice to give, as a result of her crappiest of crap situations.

Here's some of her best quotes {in my opinion}::

"You're gonna have bad boyfriends and best friends-turned-enemies. You need to be yourself, you need to work hard, and you'll get there."

"I have really gotten a chance to see who my true friends are and who is going to be there for me, you know, no matter what?"

"I just could never understand hating someone so much that you would want to do something like that to me."

"There's a difference between good people who do bad things and bad people who do bad things."

"All there is left to do is forgive and forget...So I want to forgive you. And I want to forget you."

"I would so much rather have a few of good friends than a lot of fake friends."

"He's a SUCKY PERSON! I'm never gonna like him. He did a really messed up thing!"

"Hey bubba, life's tough. get a helmet!"

"Like everyone and trust no one."

"I'm done looking. I want someone to find me."

"I'm going to be there for you when he screws you over, because he will."

I, in no way, shape, or form, believe that anything Lauren has said made her look immature. If anything, I believe it's more mature to say something to someone's face rather than behind their back {in a collected manner, of course}. I only wish I had all the right things to say like she does when put up to confrontation.

I desperately miss The Hills... sad day.

sarahjo

forget {you}

drama. welcome to the real world people, it never really goes away. doesn't matter your age, it's here to stay unfortunately. people that feed off of drama/create it, will tell you that you are immature and mean. or just do something shady behind your back.

let 'em. they're the ones that have to look at themselves in the mirror everyday.

here's the sad part:: some people will step on and over anyone to get where they wanna be. to be "happy". they will choose a girl/guy over their BEST friend. and it doesn't matter to them. it turns out they were never a friend at all.

i wonder why God just keeps adding on all the "extras" to my already hurtful situation. i'm so bitter right now, it really is just getting worse. it doesn't seem that way. it IS.

here's the hard part:: you have to love them anyways. you have to find a way to forgive them. otherwise it will just eat you up inside.

sarahjo

{nobody wins}

i erased the exchange of ugly words.

actually i erased all of it.

But for good reason. To get myself away from the very temptation of doing something {again} that i'll regret. And that would be no good.

i'm not even sure if it was those words that bothered me so much.

it was that i had someone to talk to.

a common ground of interests.

i had.

a friend.

{out of these} ashes

maybe someday i will say all the words i should have.

but for now,

i wait.

for the storm to calm.

sarahjo

sick {inside}

Carry Me,
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat

Make me breathe,
I want to be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

::jarsofclay::

today i am just simply sad.

sad the way everything turned out.

and wishing i could take it all back.

but i cant...

sarahjo

speak {now}

Well folks, hope you are as STOKED as I am. I'm literally bouncing on the couch right now. Taylor Swift. New Album. Speak Now. 10-25-10. Need I say more?

Well, maybe. First single hits itunes 8-16-10. It's called Mine. And it's about running from love. Story of my life the past few years...

{anyways} Ok, I think that's it. So check out her adorable interview already. Sheesh...

Speak Now- check it out here.

sarahjo