give + take

"today, i'm sitting in my hospital bed waiting to have both my breasts removed. but in a strange way i feel like the lucky one. up until now i have had no health problems. i'm a 66 year old woman in the last room at the end of the hall before the pediatric division of the hospital begins. over the last few hours i have watched over 30 cancer patients being wheeled by in wheelchairs and rolling beds. none of these patients could be a day older than 15. MMT"

i know life is way too short to be bitter + hold grudges.

i have loved many of my cancer patients for their will to endure so much.

& i've watched many of them pass, sadly.

that's why i'm not going to let hatefulness affect me.

because i believe in impossibilities::

for those who have given me a dirty look,

i hope i get to introduce myself to them, shake their hand, + smile in the future.

to all those who have said, "you shouldn't be friends",

i hope someday they understand that we all make mistakes,

but that doesn't make you a bad person.

don't they know Jesus loved + hung out with people that were disgraced by society?

i believe in being genuine. and i want to be that to everyone. i want to sit at the table & share a coffee with someone who everyone else says/thinks is my enemy. i want to sit by a homeless man who has been on drugs for years + lost all of his family, & listen to his story.

i wanna love someone even if they don't want to return the gesture.

i'm not stupid or crazy for loving + wanting to be friends with someone that everyone else says is a bad idea. remember that genuine thing i told you about? well, i genuinely think it's the right thing to do.

if my crazy, hyper cat {who hates cuddling/being held} can find contentment in sleeping beside me, then i believe God can make even the greatest impossibility happen.

sarahbell